THE DEEP DARK PIT OF HELL

BROKEN HEART

You broke my heart 
And threw it on the rocks
Dashed by the waves of the ocean
Now I look outside my window
And see the green green grass
And solitary yellow flowers
Shaking in the breeze
Alone am I now
Like a warrior once more
With nothing but my actions
And snake like memories of you
Writhing under his repulsive hands
Your big breasts naked
Staring at his ravenous eyes
I sit here and think of our beautiful intimacies
Now ravaged like a brutal war
Love shall not be the same again
When years of children playing
And making sweet cardamom tea in the morning
Disappear in an instant
What is love?

Life in its glorious beauty surrounds me
I suckle her and sleep
With her in my dreams
Confused, bright, mangled images
Pouring through my mind like a deluge

I love once more
Again my heart fills with pain
My eyes brim forth with tears
I want to cry again

How it cries
You who I love
Once again passes me by
Oh how I long
For someone to love me too
Oh, my heart fills with tears
Crying for you

Alas the good times we shared
Were fleeting and so short
I cry for you once more
Why am I shut off
From a true love?
Look at old people
And those with no legs
The callous world just passes them by

Who will they wed?

ORGINIAL SIN

Naked of illusions
About my life and worry
I see the hospital
With the sick and wounded
Lying in white rooms
Some with kin
And some with none 
The morning appears
In the heat
As poor people
With mundane lives
Squat by the fire
And drink their tea
The masses start their daily rush
The crippled beggar on the street
Makes my pains seem insignificant
Suddenly 
My hardness and obstinacy vanishes
I feel like a mote on the ocean
Transient
Wafting this way and that
With the breeze
My power is my ego
That can be broken
Humility, fluidity, silence,
Calm, peace, potential
Brimming over with virtue
The magnetizing force
This is my way now
The way of flailing arms
And dancing body
Action swift
But surrendered
A perfect machine dancing
With the soul of the universe
My sticking points are loosening
A little abstinence
From smoke and alcohol
Impure wind and water
Just pure breath
And pure water
The fire of exercise
The space of meditation
And I am a transforming being
No longer human
Life's hard knocks
Knock my faults
And weaknesses from me
Shell shocked
Am I
Free
Always free
To feel the breeze
I will not regress
I will not will
Surrendered
Let me stay pure
And not regress
I sleep at the feet of the universe
Suckling pure ecstasy.